Bullying...Nobody Deserves This

Written by Jenifer Chrisman on October 29, 2014.

Notes: My Story: Struggling, bullying, suicide and self-harm was matched as closely as possible to the flash cards, following grammar, spelling, capitalization and punctuation, so as to keep the integrity of Amanda’s story. Each row of words is an individual card. The ** replace verbiage unable to be transcribed.

My Story: Struggling, bullying, suicide and self-harm

Hello!
I’ve decided to tell you about my never ending story
In 7th grade I would go with friends on webcam
Meet and talk to new people
Then got called stunning, beautiful, perfect, etc...
Then wanted me to flash...
So I did.... 1 year later....
I got a msg on facebook
From him... Don’t know how he knew me..
It said... If you don’t put on a show for me I will send ur boobs
He knew my address, school, relatives, friends family names.
Christmas break....
Knock at my door at 4 am
It was the police ... my photo was sent to everyone
I then got really sick and got...
Anxiety, major deppresion and panic disorder
I then moved and got into Drugs & Alcohol....
My anxiety got worse ... couldn’t go out
A year past and the guy came back with my new
list of friends and school. But made a facebook page
My boobs were his profile pic...
Cried every night, lost all my friends and respect
people had for me... again...
Then nobody liked me
name calling, judged...
I can never get that Photo back
It’s out there forever...
I started cutting...
I promised myself never again...
Didn’t have any friends and I sat at lunch alone
So I moved Schools again....
Everything was better even though I sat still alone
at lunch in the library everyday.
After a month later I started talking to an old guy friend
We back and fourth texted and he started to say he..
Liked me... Led me on.. He had a girlfriend...
then he said come over my gf ’s **on vacation
So I did ... huge mistake....
He hooked up with me....
I thought he liked me....
1 week later I get a text get out of your school...
His girlfriend and 15 others came including hiself...
The girl and 2 others just said look around nobody likes you
Infront of my new School (50) people...
A guy than yelled just punch her already
So she did.. She threw me to the ground and punched me several times
Kids filmed it. I was all alone and left on the ground.
I felt like a joke in this world... I thought nobody deserves this :/
I was alone.. I lied and said it was my fault and my idea
I didn’t want him getting hurt, I thought he really liked me.
but he just wanted the sex... Someone yelled punch her already.
Teachers ran over but I just went and layed in a ditch and my dad found me.
I wanted to die so bad... When he brought me home I drank bleach...
It killed me inside and I thought I was gonna actully die.
Ambulence came and brought me to the hospital and flushed me
After I got home all I saw was on facebook –She deserved
it, did you wash the mud out of your hair? –I hope shes dead.
Nobody cared... I moved away to another city to my moms.
Another school... I didn’t wanna press charges because I wanted to move on
6 months has gone by ... people are pasting pics of bleach, clorex and ditches
tagging me... I was doing a lot better too... They said...
She could try a different bleach. I hope she dies this time and isn’t so stupid.
They said I hope she sees this and kills herself..
Why do I get this? I messed up but why follow me
I left your guys city... Im constantly crying now..
Everyday I think why am I still here?
My anxiety is horrible now.. never went out this summer
All from my past.. lifes never getting better.. cant go to school
meet or be with people... contstanly cutting. Im really depressed
Im on anti deppresants now and councelling and a month ago this summer
I overdosed... In hospital for 2 days..
Im stuck... whats left of me now... nothing stops
I have nobody I need someone =(
My name is Amanda Todd...

My Story: Struggling, bullying, suicide and self-harm was posted on YouTube on September 7, 2012. The video featured a teenage girl using a series of handwritten flashcards depicting her experiences with blackmail that led to cyber, verbal and physical bullying. Thirty-three days later, on October 10, 2012, Amanda Todd, at the age of 15, successfully committed suicide.

After her death, Amanda’s video went viral. With international media attention and the general public reaching out with condolences to the family, the Royal Canadian Mounted Police and British Columbia Coroners Service launched an investigation.

In 2011, one year prior to her suicide, a concerned citizen reported to law enforcement and child welfare agencies that a juvenile was being sexually extorted by an adult male. The RCMP told the family there was “nothing that could be done” about it. Finally, in April 2014, a 35-year-old man was officially charged with charged with extortion, internet luring, criminal harassment and child pornography, along with alleged activities against other child victims.

The “hate campaign” of the youth involved in Amanda’s suicide, along with others unknown to her, continue online, ridiculing her death and saying she deserved what happened to her. They still walk the streets, go to school and live their lives believing their hate and their actions are acceptable behavior.

Since her daughter’s tragic death, Carol Todd has founded the Amanda Todd Trust to support anti-bullying awareness education and programs. The only legitimate site can be accessed at amandatoddlegacy.org.

There are far too many stories like Amanda’s. Some survive but never recover, some learn how to move on with their lives, some become bullies, some take weapons to school and harm and kill fellow students and teachers, some commit or attempt to commit suicide and others are murdered.
As Amanda Todd so eloquently said, “...nobody deserves this.”